Absolutely love the fact that I can’t go to Anna’s anymore because the mother is being a bitch and I was going to go out tonight but now Jem can’t so looks like a night in for me, but I probably need one it’s been hectic and I’ve not had a boring night for a while. So in the mood to go out and get drunk though, nothing makes me feel more happy then a drink with the pals :) Got some early birthday money today, £100 to be exact so I’m gonna see if Yas is up for Kingston on Tuesday so I can get some bits and bobs. I feel quite rough right now, probably not the best idea to go out actually. Mer I’ll sort something out. I’m holding back talking to my ex at the moment though, I say ex but this is my ex from ages ago, and I want to say hi and stuff after seeing him last night but I’ll just get upset. I love how I think I’m over it and then the next minute I’m just thinking ‘fuck my life’. Ironic how I say I love it, I really fucking hate it. I’m gonna straighten my hair and dance round my room naked and possibly drink myself to death to make myself smile :) My daddy is feeling a bit better today, we’re gonna go for a walk tomorrow morning for a talk, I miss him being able to do normal stuff with us. It’s so horrible.
